To begin with, Thank You to all that have stopped by this blog in 2019!!! Really and truly, I am not looking for followers but readers like me and thank you to all the wonderful blogs that I try to visit. I love that this is a place, WP, where I can learn about new music, travel, food…Anyhow, I am recapping a little of my year, mainly January 2019. In January 2019 I was working at a job I really disliked. I miss some of my ex-coworkers but really, a few of the people that I do not miss or they way they made me feel. It is really hard being talked to like I was stupid for asking a question. I guess that is why this past year and going forward, if I have nothing nice to say to a person I have to work with I will just be quiet and let them be as ugly as they want because truthfully, I have better things to expend my energy on. No more making excuses for assholes and shitty behavior. I tried, it didn’t work on to new things.
January despite the internal shit that was going on in my body I did my best to make the most of things. I had plenty of wonderful things to keep my mind busy. On January 4, 2019 we checked out Country Nation as they always put on a great show and have so much contagious energy.
January was busy for me. I was all over the place. I got lucky when model Ashley Reinke messaged me and asked if I could take her photos when she was in town. I eagerly agreed as I needed exposure and practice. At that time, I was in excruciating pain. I don’t drive, so hubby would have to pick me up on his lunch hour and take me to work. I think I cried every morning in January on the way to work. Hubby used to get upset with me, thinking that I only wanted to stay home and not work. He like many people thought I was faking my pain. Yeah, I was trying to fake my brain into thinking I was okay and not in pain. It didn’t work.
January 6, 2019, hubby drove me to meet with Ashley and we spent around 45 minutes shooting on a side street in Palm Desert. I love that street as there is a clear view of the Santa Rosa Mountains as well as these really cool trees.
On January 10, it was Country Night and I stopped into Lit Lounge. I remember we only stayed for a bit, not even a full set. I remember Rob Staley had some upstairs to talk to the sound guy and I stopped and talked to him for a minute. I don’t know why but I remember telling him that we had to go as I was not feeling well.
The following week hubby had tickets to the PGA West Tournament and we were going to see Sammy Hagar and the Circle. I remember there was a long walk to the shuttle bus and then another long walk to the stage area. If I wouldn’t have been so high I probably would have cried the entire time. The show, though. was so worth all the un-comfortableness. Honestly, for around an hour I kind of forgot about it and was able to catch some great shots and listen to some kick-ass music.
The following day we had a long, rough, car ride to Long Beach, CA as hubby was playing with Boxcar7. Again, thank goodness for weed ’cause it got me through that rough ass month.
Hubby also had a rough month. Six days before my surgery, I was helping hubby with his equipment as the place they had played did not have a loading area.
I really thought that the end was near. I knew that when I had my last appointment with my primary care doctor that I was worn out and could no longer go on, this was on the 26th. I told her what I thought of her diagnosis and begged for intervention from the Pain Management Dept. I was quitting…everything. When I am in pain, I get suspicious and my feelings are all over the place. Hubby survived somehow too. He took the brunt of my pain. Anyhow, I survived. Finally, on January 30th, 2019 I got a call in the early evening that changed everything. A neurosurgeon from Fontana, CA called me and said I needed to report to the ER. I advised him that I have waited this long, I will go in the morning. I already knew what was going to take place and the long road ahead of me. I just wanted to spend one more night with my hubby. So, to any of you that feel like shit and don’t want to go on. I feel you, been there, done that. No matter how much pain I am in I want to live more now than I ever have. All I know is that despite the pain I find ways to quiet it. I know how tiring it is for no one to believe you.
This year I let others take photos of me. I am not one to like photos of me as I am not photogenic and no, I am not fishing for compliments. The thought of having photos taken of me makes my upper lip sweat and my stomach rumble with gas. Oh yeah, I met so many wonderful and talented people and stepped out of my comfort zone a bit when I reached out to Sarah Winchester and asked her if I could photograph her outside of the Lit Lounge.
I asked for a media pass to for the Brian Wilson show and I was granted one, success. However, my photos sucked balls. Let’s see I traveled to Arizona for a high school friends child’s wedding. I have been a passenger, beside hubby for over 10k in miles and I took a shit load of photos that will probably never see the light of day after I have reviewed them but I still have them, none the less. I got another media pass for Sara Evans. I stopped using my walker and that was the best feeling ever!
I could go on and on but will save those things for other posts. May you reader have a joyous New Year. What ever road you are one or where ever you are going today, arrive safely and have fun!